My letter of hope
Hope
is a fleeting butterfly that brings a smile to your lips at its sight,
but
it is hard…. because we know that it flies.
We
know that it leaves.
The
difference between children, and those that are tired in this world,
Is
that the children chase all things that come like Beautiful Butterfly.
My
life has been things flying away from me, and sometimes not even pretty as my
fateful and whimsical butterfly. Things have just left. Like family. Or loves. Or
homes. Or friends. It isn’t the fault of them though. This is a lonely world
when you get to it as it is.
By
the grace of my God I have been raised – finally – into a life of youth.
My
legs pump and my heart races as I foolishly and bravely and joyfully
Chase
that Beautiful Butterfly of Hope.
I
hope to God for a better world.
One
that does not call money its master.
A place
as the meadow, run by none but enjoyed by all.
A
room finally to lodge in where my dreams aren’t paid for by sweat and blood.
A
art exhibit where my body is marveled at not because of its utility or its
ability to generate, but for its soft and gentle curves.
Money
, I promise you, has done deals with racism, and oppression, and sexism, and
unfairness.
Money
is and never will be fair.
My
better world – which is painted on my Beautiful Butterfly’s wings - twinkles
not
like gold,
but
like the sun. Or the glint of a beautiful eye taking in the wave of humanity
and….
and
it. The world.
Don’t
ask me to put into words the world. Have you felt awe?
It
is the only thing that comes close to describe the wave of the world that
twinkles.
Let
my Butterfly twinkle, and shine, and blind with the glint of a full world.
Created
as it is for us.
This
world could never be laid between the heels of a dollar.
My
Beautiful Butterfly wasn’t caught with a bought net.
Or
maybe it was bought, but the currency was love.
I
hope for a better world.
One
where a net of many beautiful and colorful fingers are grasped
and
hold me safe.
Community.
The natural dance of humans is with others.
Souls
step out and turn in the streets. Down the narrow and wide roads
till
the whole world,
painted
on the back of the Beautiful Butterfly,
is
finally together again.
The
world we live in today took my heart from others a long time ago.
It
told me that “I” could pull the sun down.
But
the promise has been empty for some time now.
I have only ever seen such brightness in the
net
of fingers grasped that hold me safe.
Such
rays of light reside not in one being,
but
radiate out of the smiles of children and families and people,
all
walking side by side.
Like
a forest.
One
leaf can shake with a small , important yes, but small rattle.
However,
what a small rattle it is compared to when the winds call out the choir of the
forest.
Those
leaves sing with the infinite power of together.
Maybe
not even the bell of Dr. King can sound so sweet. And, after all, that bell of
freedom rings only with the pull of many.
Have
you heard the collective song of a forest,
shaking
and breathing with the wind and the life,
belting
out its joyous song
in
the form of a whisper in your ear?
Then
you know but a small fraction of the glory
That
is the world united, not under money or hate or “I”, but love of another.
I
hope for many things, but most of all I hope for a better world.
One
where courage isn’t lost or thrown out with our fickle fun technology… or our
meaningful yet somehow disposable relationships… or our smiles at nothing in
particular.
To
chase a butterfly,
to
wonderfully abandoned the begging of your body and life to save its energy for “a
later fight”,
takes
courage.
The
force that drives one single and powerful drop of rain to spring from the
clouds to the hard world far below
- nestled home in a net of rain fingers
grasped to keep it safe, paid always in nothing but love and the glory of the
amazing world-
is
courage.
The rain drop lands hard.
On
our roofs. On our food. Into the still sleeping rivers.
and
changes absolutely everything.
The
spectacle of the crazy and oh so powerful rain drop brings a smile to all the
other rain lips at its sight, and they gleefully rain down.
The
rain drops as a community fall into our world, and land hard.
This
rain grows our food. This rain builds the driving rivers that cannot be
stopped.
This
rain sprints into the ocean to create that which we all look to for vastness.
All
of this,
because
of the courage of that first drop.
When
she sprung from her home, they said “she won’t change a thing. Why doesn’t she
worry about herself? It isn’t safe out there. It’s far too far down.”
Yet
she, that seemingly oh so little rain drop, did fall.
Did
she fall knowing that they would follow?
Did
she fall thinking thoughts like the vain and small amount of water contained within
herself would water the big plant?
Did
she really believe that her life mattered enough to change the world so far
below?
I don’t
know, it isn’t for me to say.
But
I do know that she gave her absolute everything-
because
she died, in some way, though not in others, when she met the grasp of the
parched world below-
to
give.
Grant
me that courage God. World.
Grant
me the courage to finally race with my legs -
pounding and pumping full of blood and life,
cycling through streets and dead woods and sleeping rivers and seeds of plants
and quite bells and oh so much more-
after
that Beautiful Butterfly of Hope.
Give
me that courage, and I promise ill run after it until I catch that butterfly in
a net of love,
standing
firmly in a street full of Souls that stepped out to turn around and around
with each other. Ill stand exhausted in that road - which winds through a
forest roaring in its combined song - drenched in the falling rain, happy.
Happy
that I finally had the courage to chase hope.
Ill
sit down, a child again, in front of food grown by the courage of the one rain
drop, joined by many others, paid for with nothing but the brightness of people
and the inexpressible fullness of the world,
And
eat and regain all that energy that I spent. I will eat in the kingdom of God,
where I will be so full.
It
won’t be in vain to chase the Beautiful Butterfly of Hope that has my better
world painted on its back. I know it. I can build a world that is better for
the sick. And the suffering. And the lonely. If I have courage and and love and
walk with God and others.
In order for any march to start, there must be those few who
start to walk first. There must be those that choose to stand and move before
the crowds have formed, or the walk is easy by way of multitudes or the
"it isn't possible" is converted into "we are marching to
victory". The only way toward a revolutionized world, a new and peaceful
and just and creative world, is through the barrier hesitation and into the
courage of newness.